Mommy Jude day

Dear little boy,
Today you and I took on a day of shopping together.  We live in a small town and so much of what we buy cannot be found here so it was off to the city for you and momma.
I would like to say I have it all together and that I am able to handle it all without a hitch but to be honest it is so hard.  You are such an explorer.  Every second of your waking hours are spent searching for something familiar and learning new things.  This is absolutely wonderful when it is a time and space that makes that safe and easy but it is another thing when Momma and baby boy have to wrestle all day.  Don't get me wrong you are so much fun at this stage but I need to work on my fitness soon or you will over take me:)
But you know what?  I love these days of our independence and freedom.  I was thinking on the way home that soon you will be too old and will be in school and I will not have my little buddy by my side 24/7 and that made me so sad.  This time is so fleeting.  I heard the other day it is like trying to hold water in your hand, no matter how hard you try it slips through the cracks.  I want you to grow and be a strong, caring man.  But at the same time I want these days to slow down and I want to hold onto your childhood.  This season is so short and I want to cherish every second of it.
There were so many challenges today and yet I thought, I will have a good day and this will work.  Guess what, it did and tonight as I put you to bed we read a bazillion stories because you wanted me to hold and rock you and read, and so of course I would read just one more.
Daddy working so hard for us is tough sometimes but I feel bad that he doesn't get this experience every day like I do.  Jude you are my blessing and my reason for being.
I love you little man.

Momma